Friday, 20 September 2019

Lonely?

So, there's this big event in our college in which there was a side event of dare. In that, you need to pick up a chit which has a thing to do and a chit which says with whom you have to do it. So there were dares like: sing a song for someone or do a dance with someone or propose someone or get someone to paint your face. That last one is absurd but nevermind.
So, being the person I am, I started imagining if I would get a dare to propose someone then what would I do.
I would ask and somehow manage to persuade my crush to do this dare with me. Then I imagine how would I start, how would I touch her, how would I look at her, into her eyes with passion. What I would say. How I would take her hand and press it against my chest near my heart. So that she could feel my heartbeat. How I would start with a poem or a famous Shahrukh Khan dialog and proceed to tell her my emotions with increasing intensity in each line. And finally how I would then sit on my knee and let her know that this was all true and not just a dare, not by saying but with my emotions. All of this while everyone else is watching. I don't know how she would react to this. I can imagine she would then take a walk with me and get to know me. Other people watching would cheer.
But guess what? This is all in my imagination. So when I come back to the real world where none of this exists, I feel sad. Immensely sad. I feel like talking to someone. Telling the person how I feel about them and how desperate I am. I don't want to feel desperate and look desperate. But the truth is, I am! (ironman).
I don't know. All I can do is imagine. I want to feel too. I want to make that person feel special. I want someone in my life like that. A person who I love like a maniac and care for her like a Gardner would for his garden.

Alas! I can only imagine.

Thursday, 15 August 2019

Tujhe chahte sab hai - Magar tera aashiq bas mai hi


Ki
Teri kahaniya toh sab sunte hai
Teri kahaniya toh sab sunte hai
Magar tujhe kitaab jaise padhne wala bas mai hi

Tere hotho pe marne wale toh kaafi hai
Tere hotho pe marne wale toh kaafi hai
Magar unse bani muskurahat ka deewana bas mai hi

Teri khushi sab pehchaan lete hai
Teri khushi sab pehchaan lete hai
Magar teri aakho me chupa wo dard pehchanne wala bas mai hi

Tere dukh ko samjhne wale bohot hai
Tere dukh ko samjhne wale bohot hai
Magar usse bhulva kar tujhe khush krne wala bas mai hi

Tere haatho ko thaamne wale haazaaro hai
Tere haatho ko thaamne wale haazaaro hai
Magar unhe kabhi na chodne wala... Bas mai hi
KYUKI
Tere husn ko chahne wala saara zamana
Tere husn ko chahne wala saara zamana
Magar teri rooh ka deewana bas Mai hi.

~Ash